fuck. i'm staring at my darbyshire journals on the bloody jury system. and all i can think about is going back to singapore. going back to all of you. grumbles. this is not getting me anywhere. i wanted to finish my ils essay today, or rather this morning so i can go grocery shopping at chinatown for a good dinner with my holborn boys tmr (: and also attempt to start my xmas essays. so i can spend more time with my darlings back in spore.

i think i finally have the strength, space and heart to really be an adult about matters. and this time, when i go back. its time to put a full stop to everything. and let a new chapter begin

hmms. just a few random things i feel like writing down.

- i'm eating more rubbish & junk food than i have in like ever, or at least 6 years. my diet's gone wayyyy out of e door, i spend days eating like a cow, and days not eating at all. and i'm losing weight. this is bloody ridiculous.

- i'm missing spore not cos i'm not liking it here. in fact i love it here. i love it that i can go days without seeing the sun (: i love the accents. i love the ppl here. i love my room. its my little hole, where i put up everything myself. and i've been keeping it clean, neat and in good condition. all by myself for the first time in my life. and damnit, i'm incredibly proud of it ok.

- i'm incredibly attached to the holborn boys. hmms. they sound like my very own boyband. hahaha. but i don't think they're prepared for my madness. haha.

- 3 girls have been responsible for keeping me sane all this time. angela, hongmin & shib (: my loves.

- i love love love my singsoc exco (: thursday meetings are e highlights of my thursdays. hahaha.

- as much as public law & ils pisses me off, i love law. it just feels right. haha.

- i love having angie around (: she came down today. and for those few hours, everything felt like home. there's no need to explain anything. she knows everything. hahaha. my sunshine (:

- i think i'm going to have disgusting phone bills. calling mel & ming all e time. oops.

- i'm spending wayyyy too much money. i need to cut down in lent term. plus i'll do all my shopping in spore with my mummy :p so no more shopping here. for awhile. heh.

- i can't wait for lent term law reading week. then angela and i can go off somewhere happy happy.

- i can drop into this decent brit accent quite naturally nowadays. hahaha. ming told me she'd slap me. hehh.

- i miss taka ):

- i've been staring at my photos from my 18th bday party and those from just before i left. i think i grew fatter & uglier. brilliant -.- maybe its the hair.

- speaking of which, i need to cut my hair when i go back.

8 more days!!!! -bounces about-

happy birthday mel darling (: you're the absolute love of my life. i hope you had a great night. winkwink. hehehee.

off to really try and mug/swot. brit slang is hilarious i tell you. things like daft, knob, fit, swot, wolly and knackered. grins. oh yes, if u can decipher my han yu pin yin: ying1 guo2 ren2 zhen1 de4 bu2 hui4 suan4 shu4. ta1 men2 lian2 shi2 er4 jia1 shi2 ba1 ye3 yao4 xiang3 hen2 jiu3 hen2 jiu3. rang2 hou4 shou1, ze4 ge4 tai4 nan2 le4 -.- mei3 ci4 qu4 chi1 fan4 shi2, suan4 zhang4 shi2, yi2 ding4 yao4 suan4 shang4 wu3 fen1 zhong1 de4. smirks. if u understand, do tell me (: and i'll applaud ur chi. ahahaha.

lunch with chongs & angie today was wonderful (: felt so surreal. but so good. hehehee.

:bu neng shuo de mi mi:: jay chou :